Lots has happened since I last posted.  I've moved to DC, moved in with my bf.  He's been amazing, though as you know relationships especially with me are a little more complicated than most.  On a sad note, my dad has recently been diagnosed with a pretty aggressive cancer.  Was recently out in Minnesota visiting him, taking care of him and seeing the family for a little while.  That's been a bit challenging...to say the least, I've wanted to use symptoms more than I have in a long time.  When I moved, I wanted to start completely new and it was a lot harder this time than it has been previously.  I had gotten attached to certain people before I left, I had a reliable job, but I took a leap of faith and came here.  No new job yet...going more than a bit stir-crazy.  Worried about money.  I think the lack of structure and much of any certainty is taking a toll on me and therefore, how I am in my relationship.  I feel almost like I don't have goals anymore, which is so insanely unlike me...I need to get something going ASAP.